tired

what the hall is going on...drop deeply for my result..damnation
how could it to be?? what wrong to me??
where is my confident? lost it
everytime blaming in myself?
should it work??
totally not!!!
i try to wake up myself finally..
but u .~~~kick back mi to the deep-sea..ghost...
i was lost all myself
i tired...very tired..extremely tired..
felt tat give up myself in study even in my life...
am i stupid???
i always remind tat should be strong....!!
but i cant!! i cant!!!
where am i....
furthermore~ i was like a stubborn..
alwayz argue with him..fight with him...feel tat have a gap between us ....what to do...